I had a conversation (mostly me talking at her, I tend to do that) with my service girl that I would like to share. I wont share the entire conversation but this is essentially what I said to her after thinking about saying I love you for the first time.
I am polyamorous. I don’t know what you think that means but this is what it means to me. I have within me the capability to love multiple people. I have the capability to love an unlimited people. Many people think that polyamory means the ability to have multiple relationships, and to an extent it does. However, I break it down into its very roots. Poly and amory meaning multiple loves. I believe even monogamous people are secretly polyamorous. They just don’t want to admit that fact to themselves. Everyone loves their parents, even if we hate our parents. We each have friends that we love. But each love is different. I love my friends differently than I love Lily (My girlfriend of a year). I love Blinded as a friend. I love my parents. I love my grandmother differently than I love my mom and I love Lily differently than I love my grandmother. With each type of love I find unique ways of expressing it. I show my grandmother that I love her by supporting her in her insanity. I show my mother that I love her by continuing to come to family functions long after it became apparent that I really didn’t have to. I show Jamie that I love her by doing things within my power to make her life easier or add a variety that she didn’t have before. [I know you didn’t want a juicer but now you really know you don’t want a juicer ;)] I show Dixie that I love her by indulging her in her craziness and by never attempting to actually understand her.
Over the past few months you have worked your way into my heart. For you I want to show you that in a different way than any other because my feelings for you are unique. Because I own you [We are a D/s couple] I show you my love with a different phrase. Instead of the phrase I love you, which has become stigmatized because of monogamous couples thinking that is a huge step in a relationship because apparently love comes only once for them, I will show you my love my holding you in my arms and telling you that “You are Mine”.
When I said the phrase you are mine a shudder ran through her body and she couldn’t hold back a smile. She looked up at me and said “I am Yours”